I am almost done with my painting (30*48 inch) that’s called ‘I’m aware’. Nowadays it is in fashion to talk about self help, positive thinking, power of attraction and being aware. But what does it truly mean to be aware? Be aware of what? Why be aware? And how to be aware?
You know, you can read thousands of books and go to hundreds of spiritual teachers and never understand anything. Yes, some of them will help you, and it will last for a while. But then you will realize, that you are walking in circles. You will ask yourself : ” Why all these spiritual exersises do not work for me anymore?” The thing is, that nobody in this world knows certain recepies, that will work perfect for everyone. I am not saying it’s not worth to try. We do need to try. It is an important process.
But I believe, when we go within ourselves and finally look at our own souls (our true teachers), this is where and when things start changing into how they are supposed to be to make you happy and to bring you You. Our minds are too loud, they want to understand everything, to control everything, to explain everything. But it is not your mind that makes you alive! Mind is a powerful tool, but only if you use it along with your soul, when your mind and soul sing as a duet. Your soul knows who you are. It really does know. Ask it. Before falling asleep ask your own soul, who are you? Or while taking a walk outside ask this question again, ask trees in park, the sky above, birds, stray cats. And then in a while you will suddenly recollect something (or you will have a dream, or someone will start talking to you about it unexpectadly), that you dreamed about and what made you really happy and made you feel complete. That very moment tell yourself: “This is the door.” It will be the door into your true world. Forget everything you were tought. Trust your soul. And then when you have it figured, you can use your mind to make a statement: “I am moving forward. I am accepting myself. I love my world. My personnal world. And it loves me and takes care of me. I am safe.” No doubts, no analysis, only knowledge. You are you. Every cell in your body (feel it) rememberes who you are. Feel your forfathers in your blood and thank them for bringing you here. Bless them and move forward. They will be with you, in you, all their knowledge, love and wisdom will be with you.